week six: I’ve dropped the ball, the beat & madness

I’m so in love
it’s true.

All my fears..

                    I’ve seen them tumble down

All my dreams..
now spark a smile

my lips part from some forgotten tune
each time I meet your eyes.

all in love with the world

I had a brawl on the street.

He didn’t want to get in the car with me. I’ve created a whole new world and sometimes I struggle with:

.should you be grandfathered into this  or

.should you have to earn your way in?

“why do you get all the love in the world”

because if you did, and I wasn’t making a million excuses..then I’m listless, I’m hopeless..and saddened by what’s to come..

But maybe that’s the problem. My heart hurts.

I need to be somewhere. I can’t decide if I’m working towards it. I wonder if I’ll finally settle.

No one’s heard a word I’ve said. No one’s right outside my head.

p.s. sometimes, I’m too emo for my face

i love documentaries

at the risk of sounding insane. i can’t stop thinking.

i feel like i should become a buddhist or something.

i feel like an apple.

i feel like im sitting here watching time fly by in a whirl. second by second.

i feel amazed.

i feel like watching the ten commandments. it’s that time of year.

i feel admiration for james earl jones. classically training his voice.

i feel comfortable today.

i feel respected.

i feel pure.

i feel relief when i find soulmates. you can have more than one you know.

i feel like i can actually see the atmosphere.

i feel life taking me a new direction. this is the calm before that beautiful rain.

i just feel again.

yesterday

it was as if i reached out, took him by the collar & grasped his soul

..only for a moment..

i had to catch my breath